why im scared ?

You say that you love rain , but you open your umbrella when it rain ..
You say that you love the sun , but you find a spot shadow when the sun shines ..
You say that you love wind , but you close your windows when the wind blows ..
this is why Iam afraid , You say that you love me too :"

RIP my everything,Norris :"

In the last Post, I told you about my SuckFebruary right ? ya I said suck because in this month my rabbit is die, and you know it so make me sad and crying when remember how clever she is :(
It was on Mei,26th 2011 when a boy (Kevin) gave me a rabbit, Idk what i want to do at the time, ya I said "wow what a beautiful rabbit" and I hug her,kiss her and everyhting, my mom and daddy doesnt like her :( but Norris is a clever rabbit, she always look at my mom when my mom cooked some food,always run to my mom when my mom just sitting on the floor, and my daddy, she always kiss his foot when he walking hahaha and yaa my mom and my daddy love norris too.

I Love my norris so much, I cared about her,I make she happy,I played with her,I kiss,hug,make her comfortable,talked with her,give her a carrot and anything she want.

I always remember when norris make me so angry , ya because she cant sleep so she make some noise.
Always remember How clever Norris to make me smile and laugh.
Always remember what I did with norris when we played together.
always remember that Im the only one who get up early to look at norris and just see that everything ok.
always remember the place that she like so much.
always remember when she scream :(
remember when I bought some stuff for her .

I never thought that she will leave me so early :(

Ris, I dont know why Im so in love with you, everytime I do something its driving me crazy,and you know i cant stand about it ris :( i always remember you,remember when we are together :( remember when you follow me :(
why do you leave me so early ?? i wanna you to see me grow up ris :( i wanna hug you everytime , i wanna make every ppl know about you.. but now you leave me, you know it make me sad and i cant stop crying ris :(
yesterday is the last time I give you a hug, I kiss you and I saw you ris, I just cant stand anymore if you are`nt with me :((
I need you, there is no rabbit like you ris :( there is no someone who cared with me like i cared with you.
today is raining, and i see the rain in the back of the door, remembering about you when we just sitting in the back of door and wacth the rain, only you and me :(
and now i just sitting in the back of the door,alone :(

please, always stay with me, dont leave me, let me tell you how much I love you ris.
DONT EVER GO !!!!!!
please, whisper to the god to take care of me ris, to love me like i love you,i know you`re hear though you just an animal, but for me you a special animal in the world..

someday when I die, just promise me you will meet me ya, I wanna see you in heaven, with a big body and a smile :) and you should let me hug you like i always did :")

Norris, I love you so much :)
just let me forget about you :)
I love you..
february,25th,2012


         Sincerly,
                   
Me, Your friend :"



ps: I will uploud the photo`s from her but not now, just let me calm first and i will uploud, thanks

february

hai , how are you guys ? how was your day ? I really sorry because I didnt post anymore, yaa I really busy haha
tonight, Im gonna share what I feel everyday, its all about me :( when I sad,happy or anything ..
I hope you enjoy with the new post about what I feel when someone shaking your mind, when someone get angry with you,when someone told you that you can even though you feel that you cant, when someone make you cry,make you wanna go to somewhere, and when you know that is your Mom :"
hope you enjoy !!


             sesuai janji diatas,gue bakal nge-share about what happened to me ._.
jadi bulan Februari ini adalah bulan ter-Galau buat gue karna apa ? ya disini lah puncak2 masalah yang menimpa gue, yang pertama masalah kuliah,kedua ya bonyok,ketiga sekolah,dan lain2 ....

di bulan ini emang gue ngerasa kayaknya lebih baik berada di luar rumah untuk waktu yang lama meskipun uang habis dan betre bb low daripada harus di rumah dengerin orang marah atau apapun..
gue capek pulang sekolah sore bahkan terkadang pulang malem karna harus les,knp gue masih harus kena semprot? iya gue tau emg gue bandel gapernah rapihin kamar, tapi cobalah sedikit ngerti juga gue gabisa beresin kamar kalo tiap hari slalu banyak tugas tugas dan tugas, belum lagi permintaan buat masuk PTN,sumpah itu jadi beban bgt buat gue, im not so clever as you think mom :(
dan terlebih lagi,meskipun kamar gue emang acak adul,gue masih tau dimana gue taruh barang ini itu,emang bakalan gue beresin tp ga sekarang lah,msh ada yg perlu gue lakuin, yang penting kamar gue nyaman dan gak bau itu udh cukup buat gue!
dan lagi bukan masalah kamar saja sih,ada beberapa hal yang bisa bikin gue nangis 3 hari meskipun itu sepeleh sekaleeh -______-
tp memang yang paling sedih itu adalah saat your mom get angry with you and then your mom told you about her feelings with loud voice :( gue gabisa di bentak , otomatis gue akan lari ke kamar and then cry -____--
seperti hari ini, mama pergi dari siang entah kemana,pulang sore dan setiba dirumah,beliau marah :( then I feel like im not her daughter :(( soooooo sad ya.

i guess thats enaugh about what i feel in february and today,,, bye :"